Nadir

a rose will hurt you if you get too close to it penetrating your skin and scarring it you will be at your lowest point thus making it harder to conjoint

i would kill, lie, do whatever it takes for me to see your smile all over again i would accept lose my sight for me to feel the touch of your hand

i would accept losing my voice just so i can hear yours all over again i would give myself to the world just to be with you, where ill stand

hold me close to you before it all falls apart

i have been desperate from the first day. i have been dreaming since your final say it is hard to think of, you with me, but consider having me to love and support you everyday

am i so hard to understand? i speak words, yet still doubt it comes out some words are listened to, some forgotten i feel hatred and i drink to that

i thought we would be great, in the end you were happy and I, alone with no hope. i wasn't meant to love you, struggling to say goodbye, i am scared and I drink to that

i would be glad to see you again but what you made me go through will burn in me for eternity

sadness leads nowhere and I drink to that

my soul is desperate for an end. all my jealousy, fear and anger is not enough to make me pretend.

i wish you would notice me. it has been long enough. how could i make you see? my love for you will never cease i wish you would come to me with your soothing voice comforting me for it is what i need the most

here i am while i should be wondering about the future me if only someone serious would knock on my door if only someone i love would come by my floor

people grow, people meet, they do all their plans while i'm sitting here, planning nothing not even the senseless avenir

angels over my palms, i'm asking them if it's you up there, tell me what I am missing out on i struggle to act, live, be

i want to know, i need to know who will be there for me? would love be the one saving me?

you said it was alright but you were no different i think of the struggle, butterflies, and the sweet taste of your lips. all i needed, but all i feared, still you were no different.

i am hopeless and dying, trying and fighting, nothing seems to change. i'm lonely and sane, running in pain, nothing seems to change.

i'm thinking and thickening, my thoughts, still lingering, nothing seems to change. becoming and beholding, our faces are wrinkling, yet nothing seems to change.

love is not enough it drained and changed me thought it would last eternity instead you made it you made it go away

alone in this story amazed passionately i didn't know somehow, but i do see now it is a mystery to me full of words, i am not able to explain i miss my life from back then, i am staying full of pain

i've waited for you all those years. i said i would set you free, you wouldn't let it be. how much harder could it be ending the day without thee?

i had so many dreams you captured, you locked me away from my life. when i think of it all i appear fractures, staring at the shiny silver knife.

it is time for you to open your eyes as i plan my way out light and fragile like flies, my brain circles my memories and suspicion.

soon, you will crawl for my forgiveness, speak kindly and act heavenly. soon enough, despite my resistiveness, you will proclaim your love for me.

things ive lost made me empty, but you gave me plenty. you filled the clear spots of my heart became the biggest part. in between all of my pain you made me live again. it is now that i realise what i had lost. it was the humour, the joy it was the future i had destroyed

you see me, i am right here so let me get you time to spare maybe you will see the loneliness i fear taking over me in a world where hope is rare believing will not change their care still fearing at night, purpose is all they steal the face i put on is not real i think and i think, all i feel is fear

you said i love you for eternity no i see the irony

i am also to blame i hurt you, i'm sorry but there was no other way. you were good, kind and gentle i was harsh, angry and sad

i have been standing my whole life i have been smiling this whole time no one seems to see what life has made of me behind those dirty eyes the shadow remains the cruelty of lies getting out with no gains

i can't do this anymore. Why do you think i didn't wanna come here in the first place? i love you… i am just so tired of pretending. pretending like everything's okay that I am happy for you. i am, but i'm not okay. do you know how hard i've tried? every time im getting close to forgetting about you, you keep coming back and finding your way into making me stay. but i can't do it anymore ive had enough you're always there i've loved you my entire life. i knew you were the one for me but here you are all white. i was never the one for you. accept my truth, though it's not light.

you were my world. it hurts to know that you'll never think of me at night youll never miss me, youll never see me another way

darkness remains my brightest place

everyone discovered a new part of themselves saw their portrait on the canvas all during this global pandemic some were happier than others some felt lonesome, some more complete i felt trapped in my body, my mind i lost my ways, my purpose rule and expectations changed you have to be the person you want to be, not the person others want to see because at the end of the day, you are the only one who's there for you you have to trust yourself to excel, comfort and survive if you make it your goal to please others, what will happen when they die? you won't be able to show them the pain and effort you spent

this love is not for me it will break me instantly so i rather wait perish in my own thoughts and expectations for it the greatest way to ease the pain living in me projecting on others

people outside irritate me people inside inflict pain in me where to be? what to do? should i run? out of the blue? how can i be me? how can i feel free? help me, god help me, and let me see who am i supposed to be

theres no such thing as this theres no such thing as us there will never be

when did my love come out so rough? i wish time could tell us about all the pain youve endured me was i never good enough? your truth were lies to my ears and your lies became my reality when did my love come out so rough?

i wish love could talk to us give us another chance to set us free was all we needed some time off? im afraid of switching gears and living a life without you next to me when did my love become so tough

in reality, i pretend as if everything is fine but behind closed doors im nothing but a broken soul

behind each look lies an intention if you read a book you will guide your attention when you play the game of love your effort is contemplated whether you act as a dove or appear ill-fated

guitars have strings to sound, players have games to play, you had me to count, i had you to drift away

i want to know who can tell me why does life resonate with the worst part of ourselves?